I'm very bullish on Nvidia. Every dip or rise higher ignites my FOMO. I've profited a lot from that.
My strategy is to hold the stock and sell puts to earn premium to buy more Nvidia. If the price goes down, I just need to roll to the next week to expect the price to come back.
It has some risk and looks dangerous, but it has been fine in the past, as Nvidia has bounced back many times.
But this time, I learned what risk really is. When I sell puts, I'm exposed to the full loss risk if the stock goes down. The price went lower and lower. I needed to limit the loss by hedging, but I hadn't.
Today Nvidia's price went down to 110, and my position lost a lot. What a huge lesson.
Remember:
No leverage
Hedge the risk, limit the loss - that is what I need to learn and explore.
Hedging is a good tool. If I hedge well, I won't worry when the market goes down. Losses will be contained to a position and stop, then I'll have more time to wait for a bounce back. It's even possible to profit from hedging.
Today's improvements will make tomorrow better. Today's setbacks will make tomorrow harder.
When I slice time into daily pieces, I live fully in the present moment. I can't defer tasks to some future time - I can only act now.
While today's happiness means nothing, what I truly seek is a better tomorrow. Therefore, I must take actions today that will help me grow and improve for the future.
The market's enthusiasm has been ignited by the news that the BIG BOSS will meet with tech leaders.
The YINN (3x bullish China ETF) has been on the rise. So I used my reserve money to try to take part in it. When I bought it, I just regretted that I couldn't earn much with this little money.
I felt uncomfortable, so I sold it with little profit.
Short-term trading success can create overconfidence, leading to risky behaviors like increasing leverage. Rather than chasing market predictions, I should invest in my personal development through the 'Ability Cycle' - continuously learning and improving my skills. This strategy provides more sustainable, long-term value for my life.
TGA is a buffer account it doesn't create liquidity itself.
When its inflow and outflow is balanced, it doesn't create more money.
But when some reason like debt deficit make TGA outflow bigger than inflow, the outflow will be the deposit in banks.
Banks can use this deposit to loan to others, then money created.
When the debt deficit resolved, TGA will draw money from banks then lead to less liquidity.
There are 2 types of information: highly compressed and low compressed. You need low compressed information to build a good LLM because it has more details. People using tools to summarize books, podcasts, and articles is a good way to get quick news or rough ideas, but if they want the information to become their knowledge, the training process (reading, listening, and thinking about the whole piece of information) is inevitable.
Example: In Lex Fridman's newest AI podcast, they talk about many things including Deepseek, AGI, chips, and AI industries - you can roughly get an idea of what the trends are. But if you want to know why Google's Gemini has a longer context length (millions vs thousands) and how this feature will impact AI trends, you can't find it in any summary article. With these many details in your head, this "LLM" becomes more valuable.
Another example is English learning - it's impossible to just memorize vocabulary and learn grammar and expect to reason how to speak and understand English. You need to listen to and read enough materials to store sufficient information in your brain. Every method that doesn't let you experience more, but instead gives you compressed, structured content optimized for special tests, is rubbish.
if you don't need to earn too much money, you can do what you love.
if you want to be moderately rich, you need to do what your boss wants.
if you want to be extremely rich, you need to follow your passion.
When you have trouble choosing between following your passion and making money, it's almost always due to ignorance:
you don't know what makes you happy
you don't know what various kinds of work are really like
you don't know how well you could do them
A good way to solve this is to gain more certainty. You can try working on things you're interested in. That will give you more information.
A trick for judging different kinds of work is to look at your colleagues:
if you choose a job mainly for how well it pays, you'll be surrounded by other people who chose it for the same reason
if you choose a job mainly for how much you like it, you'll be surrounded by people who like it too
And choosing options that may give you more options in the future is also a good way to face uncertainty (staying upwind). For example: if you're unsure whether to major in math or economics, choosing math is the upwind of economics - it will be easier to switch later from math to economics than from economics to math.
It's not a good idea to simply take the advice of "follow your passion", because you mostly hear it from famous people (who are working on what they're most interested in). Not everyone does great work.
When pursuing our dreams, we need consistent practice to achieve them. The more we practice, the stronger our neural pathways become, eventually making these practices effortless. Here are the key elements to building powerful habits:
Simplify life by maintaining consistent routines. This reduces mental energy expenditure and minimizes distractions.
Choose activities that you genuinely enjoy doing daily and can repeat frequently. These activities should contribute to building your skills or abilities over time.
My current practices include:
Reading: Daily exploration of books that interest me
Learning and reflection: Listening to podcasts and writing notes
Musical development: Regular piano practice
Physical fitness: Combination of running, walking, and strength training
In the formula of information creation (Energy × Computation = Solid Information), energy is the most crucial component. When we feel low on energy, we should first focus on finding ways to improve our energy levels, rather than attempting tasks with depleted energy, which will only produce poor results.
Based on "Why Information Grows," we can express the fundamental relationship as:
Energy × Computation = Solid Information
There are three types of computational systems:
Humans,
Computers,
Transformers(AI models).
Each system can form networks that amplify their individual capabilities:
Human networks: teams, armies, companies, industries, and societies
Computer networks: the Internet, blockchain systems
Transformer networks: emerging AI infrastructures
Computer networks compose human networks and have significantly enhanced human networking capabilities.
I believe we will witness the emergence of transformer networks(AI models + internet + human network), creating a new form of intelligence capable of generating information with unprecedented efficiency. This network maybe we can call it: "SKYNET".
In Judo, the key to success is to use the opponent's strength against them. Not use your strength against them. The bigger the ennemy are, the more potential the success is.
Whenever I reach my goals or await the outcome, a profound emptiness settles in, leaving me uncertain about my next steps.
The wait is unbearable - isolated and unsupported, I find myself irresistibly drawn to distractions,
constantly refreshing for updates to kill time, and craving conversation. Yet, waiting is an indispensable life lesson. I must harness this time for introspection, learning, and self-improvement.
For if I succumb to the allure of fleeting gratifications, I risk forfeiting the potential for true liberation.
When emptiness:
❌ Surfing and refreshing for updates, seeking talks.
Selling puts is a good strategy to earn money when the price is steady or slightly up. The pain comes from:
When the price goes up quickly, you see that the profit is much smaller than if you had bought the stock.
When the price goes down, you lose money equivalent to the price drop.
If you can bear the pain of not getting as much profit as buying stock, that small and steady profit will start to accumulate, and you will see the power of compounding.
Biden: Open war on hidden "junk fees" like airline and bank fees.
Biden: Blind on Iran's sanctions, Iranian oil reaching Europe freely.
Biden can't tackle the INFLATION, so the path of least resistance is obvious: Do whaterver he can to get the votes, even though it's insignificant to solve the problem.
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The 401k is a dominant retirement plan in the U.S. This year, 4.1 million Americans turn 65 years old, but 49% of people aged 55-65 have nothing in their 401k account, and 10%-20% of retired people live in poverty. Why does the 401k not work as expected? And why is this a problem that will damage belief in the capitalist system?
Before the 401k, in the 50s to 70s, the U.S. had a pension system in the private sector. People would work in a company for 30 or more years, and the company would guarantee a fixed retirement income for the rest of their life. It worked well against the backdrop of lifetime employment and people not living as long as they do now.
The 401k came about by accident. It began when companies wanted to reward their executives, so they created a tax-deferred account to pay bonuses to their executives. The managers could get the money when they retired or left the company. There was a risk whether the IRS would tax the money, but in 1978, Congress passed a law to make it legal. That's how Section 401(k) came about. A retirement specialist, Ted Benna, found this law and used it to create a retirement plan for his company. He provided a matching contribution to his employees. If employees put money in the 401k account, the company would match the same amount of money. It was a win-win situation. The company got rid of the responsibility of the guaranteed pension system, and employees got extra money, tax benefits, and investment growth.
Why did the 401k become dominant in the U.S.? 1) The auto and steel industries declined, and a lot of corporations regarded pensions as a problem. 2) Reaganomics advocated individual responsibility, and the 401k shifted the responsibility from the employer to the employees.
Who can benefit from a 401k? Those who are high-income, disciplined, and have good investment knowledge. They don't need retirement money to live. But who falls out of the system? Those who are low-income, whose company didn't provide a 401k, or they didn't know how to invest, or they had to withdraw the money for an emergency.
The 401k reinforced income inequality. The rich get richer, of course, that tool was first designed for rich people. And normal people benefited from it due to government legislation. That is a common American model, normal people benefit from the elite's move. But the inequality still exists, millions of people falling through the cracks of the retirement system make the country driven toward socialism.
How to solve the problem? There is a plan called the Thrift Savings Plan. It's a retirement plan for federal employees, and Congress is considering expanding it to all Americans. When a company can't provide the matching contribution, the government will provide it.
Will it reduce income inequality? We still don't know, but one thing is clear, in the U.S., a comfortable retired life relies on the individual to make it happen. Retirement is a privilege, not a right.
This article is my learn note on the podcast. Follow me to get more.https://www.nytimes.com/2024/05/20/podcasts/the-daily/401k-retirement.html
I used to believe that if I keep learning, keep trying, I can live however I like, can be a brand new person. But now I have to admit that is wrong, I'm a person, my parents' son, Chinese, introverted. It's my nature.
I can't change myself, but I can make myself stronger, more resilient, more capable.
How to judge future is stable or will be in chaos?
Democracies: The restraint of leaders in their rhetoric during heated elections is a key indicator.
Autocracies: The ability to self-correct when wrong is crucial.
And inflation is also drive by Svarcity, if resources are scarce, the price will rise. = money/product, In the long term, product increases drive the inflation down. so the monetary policy is the key dimension to control the inflation in the short term.
How will the U.S. Navy remove the collapsed bridge from the water? the bridge is so heavy that it can't be lifted by a crane. bomb it? that's a interesting engineering problem. the news is show they are planning to cut it into pieces and use multiple cranes to lift it. I will keep an eye on how they do it.
NAR's settlement allowed NAR to pay $418 million to recent buyers and modify the rules to potentially reduce commission fees. This could lower housing costs and ease some inflation pressure.
PCE in expectations, but not mean inflation is over.
Yesterday's PCE data showed a MoM of 0.4%, which was within expectations. The market has already priced in the hot CPI and PPI data, causing a decrease in bond yield. However, this doesn't mean inflation is over. A 0.4% increase over 12 months equates to 4.8% inflation. Will it cool down? We'll need to wait for the CPI data on 03/12.
Btc, an attention-driven business, will peak in an economic ease cycle before declining. Eventually, it'll reach an attention limit, lose public interest, and fare worse than gold.
Despite high inflation expectations, Treasury bond yields are declining, possibly due to risk aversion-driven demand before PCE release. This is evident as the stock market drops and short-term yields rise back today, while long-term yields still fall.
In U.S. police departments, many firearms are kept from confiscations, buyback programs, and other sources. There are usually 2 ways to dispose of them:
melt it down
destroy it by blowtorch or sledgehammer
But what people commonly don't know is that a company called Gun Busters provides a free service. They will destroy the gun by just destroying one piece like the receiver or the frame (which is allowed by law). However, the problem is that the gun isn't fully destroyed. They also sell the materials to others, and these materials can be used to make new guns.
Just came back from the New Year's Countdown Activity. 2023 is gone, the past year is full of loving memories. Thanks to all the people who have come into my life, with your love, I have the courage to face the unknown future. I love you all.
In 2024, I will do my best to love, love my family, love myself, love my friends, love the world.
Recently, I've been unable to focus. My brain is full of noise, busy surfing, catching new things, but I can't foucus on the job that I should be doing.
Yesterday, I tried not to use a PC, or pencil and paper to make a plan of how to write codes, just in my brain. At first, it was so hard. I couldn't even remember the idea that I just thought of, many other things distracted me. The outside world is so attractive, people are moving, talking, the metro is arriving at stations, cars are passing by. How is Blue's competition going? How will the stock market go? Will PCE go up again?
I tried to create some containers in my brain to hold my thoughts. They're rectangular box, I put the plan from top to bottom, first, second, third. The box is emptied again and again because I can't remember what I just planned to do, but when I tried sometimes, those boxes stick in my brain, what I need to do is so clear.
Now I know the reason why I can't focus, why the outside world is so easy to distract me. I lack inner thinking. Nowadays, I can easily write notes and sync them across all my devices, but my brain is exercised less and less, then I will lose the ability to store, process, and recall information in my brain.
[ ] Slept better than last week, but still not good.
The main reason for this mess is that I didn't have clear priorities, just did what I remembered. When things started going bad, I didn't have a buffer to handle it. I have reorganized my priorities:
1. Push service to public. Build a service that can earn 6k$/month
2. English improvement
3. Health, exercise, eat healthy food, sleep early, take care of my family.
When time switches to these priority zones, I should focus on them, not keep other things in mind.
Mouse is a mental status invented by me to describe a status that I need to do a hard thing, but I'm not want to do it, i'm avoid to face it, surf the internet, do other things, but eventually I also need to do it.
When I'm in this status, I need to :
listen a music that I like
write down any thing I can to to make the goal more clear. or more near.
Yesterday, I was anxious about what I was doing. When I remember the past year of my study and work, it was just so-so. Sometimes I could find something to pursue, but most of the time I was driven by events. I didn't do something that I was really satisfied with. I have wanted to learn English for almost 10 years, and have been running intermittently for 7-8 years. I didn't do it really well, things just happened to me, and that's it. No more, no surprises. This year my running and English skills are better, not because I have changed my performance or mindset, but simply because I have had more time to do it.
When I started to learn English with Xuan, I found that my problem is my attitude towards life. I'm a "just ok" man, and usually fool myself into thinking that I'm doing well. My English learning process is the best example. I know English is my most important skill, but I didn't really take it as the most important thing to do. Sometimes I watched movies, sometimes I listened to podcasts, and sometimes there were many other things that interrupted my learning progress.
Upon deep thinking, I know that what I lack is the courage and ability to face difficulties.
Learning IPA is boring, so I just skipped it. // Hence, my pronunciation is bad.
Marking is hard, so I'll just do it in the future. // Hence, I didn't get much feedback and help.
Reading the book is hard, can I just listen and watch for fun? // Hence, I didn't solidify my English skills.
Algorithms are hard, Machine Learning is hard, it's not about my job, maybe I'll learn it in the future.
Weekly reports are boring, summaries are boring, socializing is boring.
I know I don't need to do all of these things good, and I can't do all of them well. But what about my dream? How can I achieve my dream? If I'm sloppy in all things, I will never get it. It's time to admit it.
This week
I published my English APP, and received much feedbacks.
Today, I spent some time trying to follow the RAZ video to shadow read the sentence, but the first one sucked. The sentence is "Insects have many kinds of wings."
Insect, wings, kinds, are the words that I mispronounced. I corrected the “t” in Insect, and “-ing” in wings, but the biggest problem is "kind". Most of the time, I read it as "canned" or "cans" or "candle". I spent whole day try to correct it, but still can't get it right.
all the words with -lee sounds i can't pronounce it right. like:
simply
family
Actually
I always pronounce it as -nee, I had tried compare the wave form, shadowing, but it's not work, even my wife and daughter that can pronounce it right, but failed to correct me. Haha. there must be something is wrong, I will find it out.
Today, I launched my English app and received much feedback. I'm very glad it works without any major problems. I have many things to study and many challenges to face, but I will make it come true.
I have been learning English with Xuan (X^2) for 3 days. Every time, she gives me refreshing and new shocks. She is an incredibly interesting person with very high standards in everything. Studying with her is full of challenges, but the feeling of excitement and hope is so unforgettable.
With her help, I found that what I need to do most importantly is to get much more comprehensible input. It's not just about listening more, but also about building my high-quality transformer system.
I need to delve deeper into the scene, analyze the words and sentences, and try to tell the story in my own words.
I met a fantastic person who is incredibly interesting. We chatted from morning until now. She pointed out my English problems very deeply, and she is very talented at drawing and exploring. She is very good at English and full of love for life. I'm so happy to have met her.
Yesterday, I reorganized my blog and found that what I write about is shallow and fragmented. I should increase my output, write down the things I'm learning. That is an indispensable way to learn.
This world is filled with people who are more professional and greater than you. I'm so jealous of them. Why didn't I become them? Why are they younger than me and more successful than me?
Actually, I know the reason. I didn't spend as much time as them, didn't try as massively as them, didn't discipline myself as they did. I just wanted to do little and gain more.
Now, I'm writing this down, and I'll get some sleep, and fight again when I wake up.
Never use local language subtitles to learn English
You should never use local language subtitles to learn English. This is because your brain will force you to think in your local language. Try watching this video with Chinese subtitles, you won't recognize the vocabulary and will just understand the meaning in Chinese.
I should try to write summaries periodically. When I'm not working in a company, I don't need to write a weekly report finnaly, but I also miss the chance to think, review the past, and plan regularly.
So I decide to write a summary weekly, monthly.
Work finished:
ValidEnglish APP now has concise vocabulary explanations and vocabulary encounters. This helps with better recognition of vocabulary.
New blog features: 'Moments' and UI improvements. These help me write more.
New blog feature: 301 redirects using git rename history. This allows me to restructure the blog freely without worrying about historical links.
Work not finished (expected to finish over the weekend)
Generate concise vocabulary explanations using Azure API.
Daily card, helps review activities of the day, brings recent memories back.
Publish public beta version of ValidEnglish APP. (guide, announcement)
Next week's plan:
Use best practices to connect with more users.
Explore the best ways for office workers to use the ValidEnglish APP.
A = Good sleep, regular exercise
B = Not enough sleep, no exercise, tiredness, stress
X = Eagerness to do things, doing it right now
A + X > B + X > A > B
In the past year, I have tried to make an effort to achieve A, but it hasn't worked as expected. Despite plenty of sleep and regular exercise, I still didn't have much motivation to do things.
I find the best way is to continuously build an environment to try to solve the problem that's on my mind. To build, to code, to write. Even when I'm tired, my memory is weak, and my brain can't focus, I can still try to nail it. And make some progress.
The new blog is complete. The main features of this update include:
Support for moments, transforming markdown code into beautiful messages.
Automatic 301 support for historical URLs (parsing git log to find changed file names).
UI improvements.
I'm easily drawn into building or fixing things, like repairing a water tap, keyboard, replacing a battery, fixing bugs, changing a UI. Even when it's not cost-effective, and buying a new one might be cheaper, understanding the problem and fixing it brings me joy.
The total cost is 3 days. I need to get back on track with the APP development.
Today i got a interview with Applovin, The headHunter said it's seeking a devops leader , cause Applovin is a oversea company , so i got try this job , maybe it can support transfer, but things goes weird , i see the position at email is devops engineer not leader, and the question in interview is very basic:
first is a coding test, write a function to implement loadblancer，giving some ip with ranks, i calulate the probability with sum total ranks, and use random number to test is hit in this probability, but i get 30 min to implement this function, maybe takes too much time , I'm so poor of algorithm test.
and then is question of how dns work, tcp udp difference, and what middleware i had operate.
finally, they end the interview, i thinks there is some misunderstanding of the positon, they maybe only need a experienced ops, and the headhunter said they need a devops leader.
anyway, thanks this interview, get me to know how online algorithm coding test works, and i have much more work to improve my express.
RecordRTC is a simple but powerful screen recorder (Chrome extension), and it's free. I have tried a lot of tools that require payment, but they are not as simple as this tool and are too complicated.
Life is consist of many project with deadline, but usually people did't recognize that it has deadline:
You only stay with you kids 18 years.
Your work will end when retire, or company close, or find a new job.
Your marriage will end when you or your partner die, or when your childs leave your family, or you just want be oneself.
Your life will end someday you didn't expect.
Old is you Can't open new project, and your old project closed one by one.
So, when you were young, open as many as the project you love, take care of you projects, there is no in the future it will different, only the Right Now you can enjoy, you can change.
Keep energy, when I do one thing, I will soon tired and get bored of it. multiple thing use multi part of my body , so I will use my body efficiently.
Learning one thing from another, Example: when I study how to kick leg in swimming , I finally got the reason that why my front leg sored. I focus my shin to move , but it's the minimum part of my leg muscle. when I focus on how to lift my leg, I used my hip to carry the muscle to move. then the shin sore goes away.
They are selling Theasury Securities.(data updates at 2023-05-02, but base on recent days Bonds yields rise, and deposit decline, I think they are continue selling to make liquidity deposit.)
So I guess, the bank crisis is going to emerge again in the nearly future. the Bonds price will going down in short time (cause the banks need sold their bonds to get liquidity) , but when the bank crisis is unmanageable. the fed is going ease rate, the Bonds price will get a good chance to go up.
A paper use ChatGpt to predict stock return use News headline. their prompt:
Forget all your previous instructions. Pretend you are a financial expert. You are
a financial expert with stock recommendation experience. Answer “YES” if good
news, “NO” if bad news, or “UNKNOWN” if uncertain in the first line. Then
elaborate with one short and concise sentence on the next line. Is this headline
good or bad for the stock price of company name in the term term?
Headline: headline
the result shows LLM has the ability to judge a news is a good or bad news for stock price, but I think the method they use in paper is basic, normal investor maybe can do better than the AI in judge bad news. but the value is we can use AI to improve our invesment knownledge and the logic relations of company or bond growth.
and basic AI can automatic performed, so we can use AI to do massiave task to the the thing we used can't (likes collect all news and twitter comments to summary market voice to help us better decision).
Yesterday US Flash manufacturing PMI and services PMI comes in above expectation, services PMI expected 51.5 Actual=53.7, Bond yield goes high, price down. TLT plunge 0.6%.
economic hot means inflation stubbornly continues, that's make the investor who expect FED quickly cut interest rate disappointed and leave bond market.
Linear regression is a powerful and easy tool to analyisis market, It's solve the problem of that when use Moving Average to predict price probability. it's direction is old than market, only when turn point has happened , the Moving Average turn can be happen.
but with Linear regression slope, you can see the slope become more and more high and when it's high probability can't be true, the turn point will be high probability happen. slope change before price trending change. so it's a useful tool deserve to learn.
Money is a Voting Right, it's not just a number that you can buy things, it's people's willing of wish you to do something. so invest is vote who can resprent you to do something.
Invest Bond is wish the government to do the right thing like help country grow. invest Nvidia is choose Nvidia as the present of AI infrastructure.
You should choose the best present of the market. judge them as they are a person , a inteligence.
Is Technical sector still the best present of productive ? I think it is. especially at this moment of AI rise.
A respecful older used be very foresighted to proprose the slogan of "Always Represent the advanced productive forces.", I used to think it's just a boring right but meaningless phrase. But now I know how hard to represent productive, how hard to find the pattern of solving the problem, it's so easy to be not even wrong.
Unfortunately, this slogan is not emphasized as much now. However, this slogan is not just a clichéd phrase for results certification, but rather a guiding direction for the iterative process, that is very close to the essence. For a complex intelligent agent, the ultimate goal is to find the optimal path under the potential difference. This slogan is very fundamental, but it is difficult to achieve in practice due to many traps, such as "poorly defined problems, NOT EVEN WRONG, common demand misjudgments, and individual and organizational interests being misaligned" or "precise problem definition, but old models being stubbornly adhered to due to various constraints". Although the optimal path will naturally appears as long as the potential difference exists (and is constantly replaced by competition), But for individuals with limited lifetimes, it is important to focus on whether they represent the optimal path, and not waste time on trivial matters.
Bond yield goes little up, and stock price rise much, the market is widespeard expectation that the pace of interest rate hike will slow down.
Generate AI likes ChatGPT and Claude and Brad develop so fast and the experience of use those tools shock me. I'm pretty want to buy Nvidia stock, but I had set a rule that not buy individual stock, ok, how about 10 percent?
Yesterday, the US stock market rose 2.3%, because of the SVB crisis was solved, and CPI data was as expectated. And the Hongkong stock market is going down yesterday, I think Today the Hongkong market will raise as the US market, so I'm bought XIAOMI back at 11.24(which i sold at 11.56), the price went up in the morning, reaching a high of 11.36, but it soon went down again. I sold at 10.96, and lost about 10k HKD.
I feel angry, sad, and disappointed about myself. I realize that I made a mistake by speculating and gambling on XIAOMI's stock, despite knowing that it was not a good time to hold the company. I bought it simply because the market was rising, without considering the company's situation. Additionally, I lacked the knowledge to analyze the market and made my decision based on intuition alone.
I regret my immaturity and recognize that this is a big mistake that I need to remember in life. Therefore, I am recording it.
Next:
I will focus on studying and learning the logic, behavior, and fundamental knowledge of investing. SHARE what I learn in my blog.
Only invest INDEX and BOND , not gamble company price. base on probability. If I don't know the reason and probability, I will Hold CASH (For now the US FUND intrest is about 3%+ , it's a good choice for no risk hold).
——Just write some phrase, on the day I finally decided focus on my own practice and dream, not disturbed by the pressure and money.
Stick on a thing is not easy, especially stick on the life, stick on what I believe. But that's give me courage, give me strength, give me confidence and give me happy. I love it, eventhough I'm poor, I'm weak, But, It's me, it's real me.
A big change since me known that I was a neural network likes AI, is trun from result oriented to process oriented. From set a goal and perform it to set a enviorment and set the routine. just try and try, I don't know if it's possiable, I just know it will be possible.
I used to set a goal of lose to 75kg, and list the thing I need todo , like exercise at morning, sleep at 11pm. eventhough I had archieve this goal now, but not by follow my plan, things change a lot, I usually didn't finish my plan and I'm frustrating, sometimes I'm not exercise long time. things change from i just set the time , i need a exercise per 2 days, whatever the exercise is it. running , bicycle , or just squat.
And for the develop app, I have many idea to do, and have so much things to archieve, it's hard to schedule how i can finish it. so i explore and finish a feature and a feature, but it's just so long to the milestone . so I change to just stick time on it. forget the version 1, version 2, I have time, I can make someting in this time. things gonna easy.
yesterday I tried webrtc-vad + baidu asr to recognize text in audio files, and today i found a openai project called whisper and it's stunned me , everything work perfect especially it's can run in local, so i didn't need to afraid the expense of online service fee.
I got fever at 21/12 then the test result show that I got COVID-19, It's not very unconfortable at first 2 days, the 3 to 4 day is the hardest , I'm very weak just want stay at bed. at the fifth day i still got little fever so i had goes to the hospital, but everything is fine. now is the sixth day , I'm totaly ok now.
the things happened at these days, changed me some mind, so i want to take a time to replan my plan.
I also spend many time on meanless things and sometimes disappointed, so next phase I will be more focus on my own things.
About the work, did i want back to work now ? No, I think not, i don't want waste time on work , especially after these pandemic days. I need money to raise my family, this idea goes more strongly after these days, but not from work, work is not real stable and uncontinueable for me. I need to provide service directly to people to earn money, time is crucial, be faster!
Just see Tombkeeper share how to get the drugs for treat COIVD-19, the Hacker Spirit comes out from my mind, hacker spirit is about to discover, find the detail, connect the slight connections, then things dramatically get done.
Everything looks like normal in appearence, but the underneath hide so much things, only if you get more more informations, you can see the whole picture, then you are the GOD. i remember the time that i finally get the control access of NET CAFE, the time i finally make the application works to help me to play games. the time that i earned money to buy the computer by help the ZYK fans votes.
I like the TA-DA times, when i going to work, i leave this way far more, for earn money, working as normal, as a part make company, bussiness work and grow. that's work, but just work.
I want to do the thing that I can control, the thing that I can change ,the thing that I'm the GOD of it, not only a expert, not only professional, that's need me know the damn detail, damn information, that's need me live in a way of hacker.
Hacker is essential boring , boring in the 99% time, you need to do the damn boring thing such as learn the knownledge, practice, build solutions, improve the solutions, nobody care, nobody buy it, everybody will buy the 1%, but only you know where the 1% comes form.
If you are tired, you'd better to get a rest, a nap, close your eyes, think about nothing, let it go, that's will be very helpful. after a nap, your energy will back immediately.
If you struggle to hold on, that's maybe will let you finish some works, but that's unsustainable. it will be harder and harder , then get you down. it waste more times.
First is sport, regular sport can let you more peaceable, let you believe that you can easily control your body, worth noting that you need find a right way to take sport, wrong sport way can make you tired, hurt, and frustrated. you need get the knowledge of how to warm up, how to relax muscle, how to monitor your body, how to drink etc... It's definitly a serious thing.
Second is creating, write thoughts, share knownledge, provide service, everthing thats make you produce ideas, speak out your worries to friends is also helpful. somethings it's not need to be that formal, just start is success 80%. Your goal, intrests is come from those normal little things.
I think mix english and chinese content is not friendly for reading, so i'm consider how to support multi-language. but it will after i finish my IELTS. there will be a big architecute refactor of ValidSpace.
How to win the fight with the big company: big company will focus on their own solutions, the solutions will go very deep, their technology is fancy, but not focus on the real problems, it will be competitive in the field like universal platform, underlayer service , but because the jumbo size they are not really sensitive to particular customer needs, so the service that directly fulfill the particular needs (not universal solutions) will gets more opportunity to survival.
What I'm lack now: that's a critical question that i need to answer, first I'm get many distract, and I'm lacks the experience of long time schedule and get big project done, in past serval month the excercise, english, programmer get some progress, but i still need to clear how reach the future, how to clear the final goal and the pathway, that's a big topic, so i will open a single topic to talk about that.
buffer is important: why people need use their all time to work, study, or do someting, or if not do that They usually will be considered as not hard working, but everything has it's own pathway, if we want achieve the goal, we need to find and follow the logic, not how much hard work. like running, jogging, you need to know how to be healthy excercise, how to adjust when if you failed your plan, and then is keep the routine, you can't short the time to achieve the idea cardiorespiratory capacity, your body, muscle need time to grow up. so don't push you too hard , keep you on the track and move , it is not important that how slow the progress is, if only you can satisfied with the advancement.
when we plan to do something, there will definitely be wrong, unpredictable thing waiting us, if you have much buffer, it is easy to adjust your rhythm and accomplish the plan, when we literally accomplished our plan, then we will get more buffer time to set and finish our goal, not struggle in single circle. like (hard excercise=> hurt or tired=> stop=>feel bad=>hard excercise, or work hard to earn money => tired but not competitive => less opportunity => work more hard).
Today is the first day that Hangzhou eases the COVID control policy; now you don't need to get a PCR test every 3 days to get into the metro, buses, and other public places.
Even though your health code will still be checked, any other code that is not green will prevent you from entering a public place. But it's a big step that will reduce many influences on daily life. People are celebrating the lifting of restrictions.
When I got out this morning, the PCR test site was still open, and people were still going to do the PCR test. What surprised me was that most older people had worn masks; in the past, very few people had worn masks in open space. That's a good thing that older people pay attention to personal hygiene.
I didn't have my PCR test checked, and I didn't have to scan the SITE QR Code; I just had to show my healthy code, and then I was allowed to take the metro and go to the library. and I still need to take a mask to those places.
I'm got districted morning, after afternoon's meditation , i start to control this, get put back on track, and finished the daily routine finally:
[x] friends
[x] IELTS reading listening test
the score of IELTS still goes 5.5, listening score is 22, better than yesterday, the biggest problem in listening is i can's spell the word right. and the biggest problem of reading is unknown words. need to improve my words base soon.
In meditation , i thought that follow news is meaning nothing. i spent so much time on it , visit twitter, weibo, v2ex just want to get some useful new informations, it's just a dopamine addiction, i use so much of time seeking for cheap dopamine.
honestly, surfing, seeking easy and cheap things is my biggest problem, sometimes, i can spent whole day, whole night to do those things. how can i change (or theat) it.
Maybe, likes all problems to be soleved, first, i need to define it, second i need to measure it, then i make solutions.
My last shares of Alibaba has cleared with price 91$
My last part of alibaba shares selled now with price 91, now i'm not hold any shares of Alibaba now, the price of the day i join the company is 180, but with not pity, i'm so happy my life didn't get influenced with the stock price, every thing goes fine in plan.
If you are in plight, then take care of yourself.
If you are in a good condition, then help others.
just watched how Taiwan's Tech industry grow history, it's start with nothing, visionary likes 李国鼎,孙运璿 and so on, do so many works to grow the semiconductor economic, after decades Taiwannese companies account for 50% of world market.
And in china's history , the story of how Scholar mind the world, help the poor people is innumerable, in Chinese culture, people willing to with mission for make good things happen, willing to help each other. and if you don't have ability to help other, you can also be a good person, let yourself, your family to be better.
That's why i'm proud to be a chinese, even though hard time always coming, but family in your back, world in your front.
Now is 1:00 AM, i just heard that beijing is relax the restrictions of covid-2019, that's give me a big suprise that youth is very different from us old man. they do what they want, say what i can't imagine, and !!!! IT'S WORKS!!!!, THANKS to all people that with good heart, good wishes, good purpose(include the GOV) together to make things going to fine.
Now is 6:14 PM. prepare to back home now, Honestly I feel tired now, i didn't sleep well at recent days, first is because i didn't schedule my routine well, and today i spented much time to surf news, but still feel satisfied that i complete :
watch and study friends so1e17
finish 2 IELTS paractice (read , listen), but i only get 5.5 score both of them
I found that I was snored when sleeping(I use MI healthy App to record sleep and snore), especially when i got short sleep time, I have bad hadbit that some day sleep after 1:00 AM, if i sleep more than 7 hour , it probably will not snored that night.
The time that i first find i was snoring was at Shanghai lockdown, those day was tired and get sleep very very bad, some day only sleep 1-3 hours(cause need to work at night), i found everybody of my colleagues will snoring, and a colleague said i was snoring too, but not much time. so i think when people get tired , of sleep late, the body need more air immediately，so people will probably get snoring.
