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How to define a person.
2023-12-28 11:23

A human's structure:

  • Level 3: Service // What he provides
    • System
    • Product
  • Level 2: Action // What he can do
    • Storage: Knowledge
    • Processor: Thinking ability
  • Level 1: Body // What he has
    • Health
    • Age
    • Strength
    • Energy
Caution: I'm losing the ability to deep think
2023-12-28 9:16

Recently, I've been unable to focus. My brain is full of noise, busy surfing, catching new things, but I can't foucus on the job that I should be doing.

Yesterday, I tried not to use a PC, or pencil and paper to make a plan of how to write codes, just in my brain. At first, it was so hard. I couldn't even remember the idea that I just thought of, many other things distracted me. The outside world is so attractive, people are moving, talking, the metro is arriving at stations, cars are passing by. How is Blue's competition going? How will the stock market go? Will PCE go up again?

I tried to create some containers in my brain to hold my thoughts. They're rectangular box, I put the plan from top to bottom, first, second, third. The box is emptied again and again because I can't remember what I just planned to do, but when I tried sometimes, those boxes stick in my brain, what I need to do is so clear.

Now I know the reason why I can't focus, why the outside world is so easy to distract me. I lack inner thinking. Nowadays, I can easily write notes and sync them across all my devices, but my brain is exercised less and less, then I will lose the ability to store, process, and recall information in my brain.

Weekly Report 20231224: Valley of Despair#WeeklyReport
2023-12-26 0:00

Yes, you read that correctly. Today is Tuesday, but I'm writing last week's report.

Last week was full of mess:

  1. Service
    1. Wrote RSS subscribe feature, but failed to finish it. Just couldn't focus on it, wrote for a while, and got distracted by other things.
    2. Started weekly communication with users.
  2. Finished reading the book "Revolution of Glucose".
  3. Didn't finish the listening goals.
  4. Slept better than last week, but still not good.

The main reason for this mess is that I didn't have clear priorities, just did what I remembered. When things started going bad, I didn't have a buffer to handle it. I have reorganized my priorities:

    1. Push service to public. Build a service that can earn 6k$/month
    1. English improvement
    1. Health, exercise, eat healthy food, sleep early, take care of my family.

When time switches to these priority zones, I should focus on them, not keep other things in mind.

Mental status: Mouse
2023-12-21 15:00

Mouse is a mental status invented by me to describe a status that I need to do a hard thing, but I'm not want to do it, i'm avoid to face it, surf the internet, do other things, but eventually I also need to do it.

When I'm in this status, I need to :

  • listen a music that I like
  • write down any thing I can to to make the goal more clear. or more near.
  • just do the simple thing.
Weekly report 20231217 Continue to Coding#WeeklyReport
2023-12-17 22:45

this week:

  1. Kickd out by Xuan's English learning program. cause I didn't commit enough time to learn english.
  2. develop Valid English App to v29, improve highlights, and fix bugs, and add a feature of dictation.
  3. Finish half marthon in 2:04 at Hangzhou.
  4. not finish book reading goal. 50%
  5. carefully listen podcast 2/3
  6. casually listen podcast group 1/4
  7. sleep goal runs bad.
half marthon

Next week:

  • perform better in Daily Maintenance program, schedule at morning, review at night, write down logs.
  • build a App development pipeline. publish every 2 weeks.
  • write english leanring guide experience. find resouces.
Weekly report 2023-12-10 (Anxiety)#WeeklyReport
2023-12-10 17:33

Yesterday, I was anxious about what I was doing. When I remember the past year of my study and work, it was just so-so. Sometimes I could find something to pursue, but most of the time I was driven by events. I didn't do something that I was really satisfied with. I have wanted to learn English for almost 10 years, and have been running intermittently for 7-8 years. I didn't do it really well, things just happened to me, and that's it. No more, no surprises. This year my running and English skills are better, not because I have changed my performance or mindset, but simply because I have had more time to do it.

When I started to learn English with Xuan, I found that my problem is my attitude towards life. I'm a "just ok" man, and usually fool myself into thinking that I'm doing well. My English learning process is the best example. I know English is my most important skill, but I didn't really take it as the most important thing to do. Sometimes I watched movies, sometimes I listened to podcasts, and sometimes there were many other things that interrupted my learning progress.

Upon deep thinking, I know that what I lack is the courage and ability to face difficulties.

  • Learning IPA is boring, so I just skipped it. // Hence, my pronunciation is bad.
  • Marking is hard, so I'll just do it in the future. // Hence, I didn't get much feedback and help.
  • Reading the book is hard, can I just listen and watch for fun? // Hence, I didn't solidify my English skills.
  • Algorithms are hard, Machine Learning is hard, it's not about my job, maybe I'll learn it in the future.
  • Weekly reports are boring, summaries are boring, socializing is boring.

I know I don't need to do all of these things good, and I can't do all of them well. But what about my dream? How can I achieve my dream? If I'm sloppy in all things, I will never get it. It's time to admit it.

This week

  • I published my English APP, and received much feedbacks.
  • Mainly learned English with Xuan, practiced pronunciation, and read the book.

Next week

  • English improvement, practice pronunciation use RAZ, read books and listen to podcasts 3hours+ per day.
  • APP improvement, fix bugs, improve highlight.
  • Build service for beginner, find listen materials, and write guide for beginner.
遇到困难,不要内耗,想办法去解决,面对它
2023-12-9 14:44
I got a new MacBook Pro
2023-12-8 0:13

Recieved my new MacBook Pro today, It's faster, more battery life, but why I'm not excited as before?

It's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward
2023-12-5 12:24
I got the -lee !!!!
2023-12-3 0:07

with hundreds of practice, and the help of https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QAHg7h80-KQ, I finally got the -lee sound.

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the key is to make mouth more wide.

Frustrated by my Pronunciation
2023-12-2 22:21

Today, I spent some time trying to follow the RAZ video to shadow read the sentence, but the first one sucked. The sentence is "Insects have many kinds of wings."

Insect, wings, kinds, are the words that I mispronounced. I corrected the “t” in Insect, and “-ing” in wings, but the biggest problem is "kind". Most of the time, I read it as "canned" or "cans" or "candle". I spent whole day try to correct it, but still can't get it right. all the words with -lee sounds i can't pronounce it right. like:

  • simply
  • family
  • Actually

I always pronounce it as -nee, I had tried compare the wave form, shadowing, but it's not work, even my wife and daughter that can pronounce it right, but failed to correct me. Haha. there must be something is wrong, I will find it out.

Launched My English App
2023-12-1 23:52

Today, I launched my English app and received much feedback. I'm very glad it works without any major problems. I have many things to study and many challenges to face, but I will make it come true.

English Learning Adjustment
2023-11-30 23:16

I have been learning English with Xuan (X^2) for 3 days. Every time, she gives me refreshing and new shocks. She is an incredibly interesting person with very high standards in everything. Studying with her is full of challenges, but the feeling of excitement and hope is so unforgettable.

With her help, I found that what I need to do most importantly is to get much more comprehensible input. It's not just about listening more, but also about building my high-quality transformer system.

  1. I need to delve deeper into the scene, analyze the words and sentences, and try to tell the story in my own words.
  2. I need to correct my pronunciation and try to use speech-to-text to check my story.
  3. The more input I get, especially if it's dense and correlated, the easier it will be to learn English.
Unknown Pathway
2023-11-28 15:22

An unkown way may not lead to your destination, but absolutely it will lead you to a new world.

I met a fantastic person
2023-11-28 14:16

I met a fantastic person who is incredibly interesting. We chatted from morning until now. She pointed out my English problems very deeply, and she is very talented at drawing and exploring. She is very good at English and full of love for life. I'm so happy to have met her.

11-28 Sunny Day
2023-11-28 9:16

Begining today's work, wishing everything goes well.

I should increase my output
2023-11-27 9:37

Yesterday, I reorganized my blog and found that what I write about is shallow and fragmented. I should increase my output, write down the things I'm learning. That is an indispensable way to learn.

Jealousy
2023-11-26 16:19

This world is filled with people who are more professional and greater than you. I'm so jealous of them. Why didn't I become them? Why are they younger than me and more successful than me?

Actually, I know the reason. I didn't spend as much time as them, didn't try as massively as them, didn't discipline myself as they did. I just wanted to do little and gain more.

Now, I'm writing this down, and I'll get some sleep, and fight again when I wake up.

Keep fighting, you stupid old man!

Quantum Entanglement: From Philosophy to Mathematics, through Science to Technology#thoughts
2023-11-25 14:39

量子计算就像飞机,古典电脑就像汽车,飞机不会取代汽车

Never use local language subtitles to learn English#English
2023-11-25 13:53

You should never use local language subtitles to learn English. This is because your brain will force you to think in your local language. Try watching this video with Chinese subtitles, you won't recognize the vocabulary and will just understand the meaning in Chinese.

Summary of week 2023-11-25#WeeklyReport
2023-11-25 8:55

I should try to write summaries periodically. When I'm not working in a company, I don't need to write a weekly report finnaly, but I also miss the chance to think, review the past, and plan regularly.

So I decide to write a summary weekly, monthly.

Work finished:

  • ValidEnglish APP now has concise vocabulary explanations and vocabulary encounters. This helps with better recognition of vocabulary.
  • New blog features: 'Moments' and UI improvements. These help me write more.
  • New blog feature: 301 redirects using git rename history. This allows me to restructure the blog freely without worrying about historical links.

Work not finished (expected to finish over the weekend)

  • Generate concise vocabulary explanations using Azure API.
  • Daily card, helps review activities of the day, brings recent memories back.
  • Publish public beta version of ValidEnglish APP. (guide, announcement)

Next week's plan:

  • Use best practices to connect with more users.
  • Explore the best ways for office workers to use the ValidEnglish APP.
    • Short videos that they might be interested in.
  • Continue to build my learning, promise, and mantainance system. Next week, restructure my blog about it.
Enery Level experience
2023-11-25 7:53
A = Good sleep, regular exercise
B = Not enough sleep, no exercise, tiredness, stress
X = Eagerness to do things, doing it right now

A + X > B + X > A > B

In the past year, I have tried to make an effort to achieve A, but it hasn't worked as expected. Despite plenty of sleep and regular exercise, I still didn't have much motivation to do things.

I find the best way is to continuously build an environment to try to solve the problem that's on my mind. To build, to code, to write. Even when I'm tired, my memory is weak, and my brain can't focus, I can still try to nail it. And make some progress.

念念不忘,必有回响,比单纯良好的物理身体状态更能激化行动力。

share my dinner
2023-11-24 20:01
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Stew with mushrooms, vegetables, eggs, rice, shrimp, and beef balls. It's too hot, so add a generous amount of ice.

beautiful sky at the library#life#beauty
2023-11-24 19:47
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Finish a day's work, then go back home. See the beautiful sky with airplane trails. It's so beautiful.

The happy of build and fix things.
2023-11-24 14:59

The new blog is complete. The main features of this update include:

  • Support for moments, transforming markdown code into beautiful messages.
  • Automatic 301 support for historical URLs (parsing git log to find changed file names).
  • UI improvements.

I'm easily drawn into building or fixing things, like repairing a water tap, keyboard, replacing a battery, fixing bugs, changing a UI. Even when it's not cost-effective, and buying a new one might be cheaper, understanding the problem and fixing it brings me joy.

The total cost is 3 days. I need to get back on track with the APP development.

new blog, new moments, new begin
2023-11-23 17:26

just rewrite my blog, added a new feature named moments , for post short message like this.

✿✿ヽ(°▽°)ノ✿

Github Copilot is a great tool#tools
2023-11-22 11:23

Copilot can not only help you write code but also help you write anything. I use it to correct my English grammar. 20231122112313

RecordRTC is a free and powerful recorder#tools
2023-11-22 11:13

RecordRTC is a simple but powerful screen recorder (Chrome extension), and it's free. I have tried a lot of tools that require payment, but they are not as simple as this tool and are too complicated.

https://chromewebstore.google.com/detail/recordrtc/ndcljioonkecdnaaihodjgiliohngojp

The author is https://muazkhan.com/

Life is lots of Project#thoughts
2023-10-27 12:00

Life is consist of many project with deadline, but usually people did't recognize that it has deadline:

  • You only stay with you kids 18 years.
  • Your work will end when retire, or company close, or find a new job.
  • Your marriage will end when you or your partner die, or when your childs leave your family, or you just want be oneself.
  • Your life will end someday you didn't expect.

Old is you Can't open new project, and your old project closed one by one.

So, when you were young, open as many as the project you love, take care of you projects, there is no in the future it will different, only the Right Now you can enjoy, you can change.

2023-10-07 Atomic Habits#book
2023-10-7 12:00

读《Atomic Habits 原子习惯》 有感, 这本书值得读一读

自我修炼其实只是 加法,远没有乘法效应那么可观,做几分得几分,能跑了就能跑,能读英文书了就能读,也仅此而已,没有多fancy。

不是屠龙术,但是却是一切的原点,0x啥都是0, 1x啥就是啥,2x啥才开始产生量变,我自己觉得我之前很多地方都是0,现在也仅比0多一点点,还远没有到1,更没有到2。导致我做啥啥不行,英语不好失去会多机会,自制力不行卷不过别人,规划不行浑浑噩噩这么久才发现做了很多无用功。

好在0到1的过程让我满意,让我有打碎自己重造的信心和动力

2023-10-07
2023-10-7 12:00

What you believe determines what you do, what you do determines who you are, who you are determines what you believe.

believe that you are the person that you want to be.

then act like the person you like to be.

then you will be the person you want to be.

以前我觉得得到我想要的,就是定个目标,按计划一步一步实现它

我定了很多想要目标,基本都没实现,理想和现实差距总那么大,我总是自责自己自制力不够,懒惰,分心

到最近我才慢慢发现差距在哪里:

其实这些个目标只是美好的想象,从没有在我的心里真正的扎根,只是个愿望而已,许完了,该干嘛干嘛,有时候挣扎一下,过一会又被别的事情充满我的时间和生命》

我的生命被微博,推特,吃零食充斥,各种信息的,物理的零食充斥着我的时间,工作的时候钉钉消息占据了我大部分时间,不是工作就要处理那么多消息,而是我实在无法抵挡回消息被动处理问题的快速多巴胺反馈的诱惑,这些短的有效的多巴胺已经形成了习惯。而习惯是什么呢,就是随着你进行的越多,越自动,阻力越小,你越是做它,我是真的喜欢这些么,肯定不是,但是你说我能离开他们么,明显不能,下意识的动作已经支配了我。

打破这种局面的,是我有大量时间去和这些做斗争之后,新的时间空间,让我有余力去体会新的事情,新的事情形成习惯,让我逐渐的产生对比,“我” 这个body, 肉体,宁克凡,四岚,想要什么东西,我讨厌那种被肉体支配的感觉,在厕所拉屎都想要拿出手机刷一刷,偶尔想克制不刷,还是止不住的想在口袋里淘。

我逐渐发现我想要什么,我其实想要变强壮,我更喜欢跑步慢慢把我变瘦,让我能控制我自己的身体。我想精力充沛,这种想法开始对晚睡的习惯产生冲击,开始动摇那些支配我的习惯,我现在才发现有效的改变不是我设定了一个早睡的目标,慢慢去尝试,训练。而是我从内心深处,知道自己是一个什么人,我应该是个能跑马拉松的人,我应该是个整天工作不困更强壮的人。

当然这里面不是那么简单的:因为相信,所以看见。它包含了很多尝试,很多失败和成功,很多你自己的经验积累,这是一条:你是谁->你想要什么->你做什么->你得到什么 的探索路径。不用鸡血,也不用比较,别人真的不重要,这只是你自己一个人的战斗,有梦就去追,累了就休息,只要自己内心认可,往前每小一步自己都会满意。

你会发现你最不能满意的,就是你和你内心的方向不一致,身体和内心产生了冲突,产生大量的内耗,甚至让你绝望,顺应自己的想法吧,那怕你审视之后,发现我就是要吃零食,即使产生严重后果也在所不惜,那么最优选择应该是去吃。

如果你经常心里挣扎,纠结,这其实也是一件好的事情,这说明你的内心已经表达了自己,你要做的是好好听听它的声音,做一点你想要做得事情看看,慢慢这颗种子,会带着你往它的方向走。

2023-09-28
2023-9-28 12:00

what inspire me from this video is Taiwan Youngs' hopefulness and resilience, even in the midst of struggles, they strive to move forward.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I2CK-j-pR7M&ab_channel=CNAInsider

2023-09-15 观三姊妹纪录片
2023-9-15 12:00

https://www.bilibili.com/video/BV1F3411Y7vb/?vd_source=094e181c6a3bed77aef21259547b84fb 刚看这个纪录片,是从 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=db6kNqZ8iZY&ab_channel=%E4%B8%80%E7%9B%AE%E5%8D%81%E5%BD%B1 一目十影的速看找到这个片子的。

看完心情不能平静,想说很多话又好像没啥说的。

孩子过早的独立=父母的缺席。youtube这这句评论打进我的心里,期盼blue和snow能早点独立,又舍不得他们慢慢变大。

人都是需要爱的,想想我也给她们带来过很多伤害委屈,所幸他们还在原谅我的冲动我的生气,不是父亲这个身份给了我归属感,而是一起长大的陪伴给了我珍惜的动力。愿所有人能生活在一个友好,有爱的环境。

另外今天跑步的时候,有个单眼好像残疾的人叫了我一下,我潜意识感觉是什么麻烦,惯性的没停下来,走了100米心里纠结这会不会违背自己的原则——帮助他人。又犹豫大概率是要钱什么的有必要专门回去么。几经反复还是折返回去问下什么情况。所幸只是之前遇到过的假装困难要钱的,给他买吃的也不要。

我现在的思考是为什么有的人衣食无忧在顶级学区用顶级资源在卷,为什么有的人10岁了上不了学需要照顾2个妹妹还没有爸妈陪伴。肯定不是因为努力,说运气其实也说不上,投胎也只是表面,而是作为一个人类整体,无数人的集体贡献,造就了今天高度发达的人类社会,虽然这个社会有不少短板,但是已经让无数人过上了相比茹毛饮血的原始社会高几个量级的生活。这种社会的演进,互助贡献了很大的力量。

我们都是人类,生理上没什么差异,见识经验上差异虽然巨大,但是不能把结果过多的归咎为自我努力,更不能嫌弃,指责其他人。能力越大,责任越大,做已所能及的帮助别人的事情吧。

2023-07-17
2023-7-17 12:00

The benifit of do multiple things is:

  1. Keep energy, when I do one thing, I will soon tired and get bored of it. multiple thing use multi part of my body , so I will use my body efficiently.
  2. Learning one thing from another, Example: when I study how to kick leg in swimming , I finally got the reason that why my front leg sored. I focus my shin to move , but it's the minimum part of my leg muscle. when I focus on how to lift my leg, I used my hip to carry the muscle to move. then the shin sore goes away.
2023-07-07
2023-7-7 12:00

Every little boy that was refused by his short and thin body, may became the world champion of football in the future —— with respect to Messi

不管做不做,外界照样转 不管做什么,外界照样说

我改变不了外界,但是可以改变我自己 每一次的行动,都是下一次行动的垫脚石, 在这一次,我克服了恐惧,我克服了担心, 为下一次,积累了一点力量

这力量让我安定,让我相信自己,这就够了。

为每个敢想敢做的人开心,希望这是未来的自己 为每个敢想不敢做的人支持,做梦是自己行动的第一步 为每个不敢想不敢做的人尊重,世界需要可以不做的自由

为每个diss别人做梦的人惋惜,diss or 不diss 世界还是那样蓬勃发展,而diss为自己设下了一道栅栏,强化了自己的人设立场,降低了更多的可能。

2023-07-01
2023-7-1 12:00

life is a experience, thanks for what I experienced, pity what I didn't tried.

人生终究只是自己经历的总和,和太多人来来往往交集一段又各奔远方,所幸我之过往,不幸我所未尝。愿未来随心所欲,愿未来同好欢畅。

谨慎训练自己,认真照顾家人,善意对待他人。

2023-06-13
2023-6-13 12:00

Culture bring us together. when Taipei sing the lyric of "河北师大附中(The Middle School Attached To HeBei Normal University)", its a tearful moment.

2023-06-06
2023-6-6 12:00

walk between desperate and hopeful. Keep trying, Nerver ever give up!

US Bank crisis is not over
2023-5-19 17:30
  1. Bank borrow from FED through BTFP is rise:

  2. They are selling Theasury Securities.(data updates at 2023-05-02, but base on recent days Bonds yields rise, and deposit decline, I think they are continue selling to make liquidity deposit.)

So I guess, the bank crisis is going to emerge again in the nearly future. the Bonds price will going down in short time (cause the banks need sold their bonds to get liquidity) , but when the bank crisis is unmanageable. the fed is going ease rate, the Bonds price will get a good chance to go up.

2023-05-09
2023-5-9 12:00

心似已灰之木,身如不系之舟

问汝平生功业,黄州惠州儋州

2023-04-26
2023-4-26 12:00

我们的国家,我们的民族,我们的历史发生了太多因为战争而生灵涂炭,骨肉分离的悲剧,我讨厌任何的战争,暴力。我会:

  1. 尽我所能去避开暴力,
  2. 尽我所能去减少仇恨,先让我自己善待他人,善待自己,坚持立场,帮助需要帮助的人

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jd4eL_48Ww0&ab_channel=CNEWS%E5%8C%AF%E6%B5%81%E6%96%B0%E8%81%9E%E7%B6%B2

怎么保持自己的核心竞争力:
2023-4-10 12:00
  1. 活的足够久,你自然能掌握到更好的生产力
  2. 活的开心,明月照大江,别让外界影响自己,这是活的足够久的一个保证
  3. 加强自己对本质的东西的理解,Training自己,很多东西不会变的,比如
    • 语言,让你和世界能加强连接的工具
    • 社会分配关系,有人的地方就有江湖,股市也是个大江湖,由更多的人biubiubiu的绑在一起分配资源
  4. 加强连接,既然想从社会分配中摄取资源,就别隐居,广泛参与到各种分工
    • 4.1 知识传播分工,帮助社会智能中的个体更快的发展,普及, 参与各种社区,开源,发帖,评论,吹牛
    • 4.2 资源分配分工,新的有数字货币,老的有股市基金
    • 4.3 参与分工的时候要专业,不要做中下游的节点
Money is a "Voting Right"
2023-3-24 12:00

Money is a Voting Right, it's not just a number that you can buy things, it's people's willing of wish you to do something. so invest is vote who can resprent you to do something.

Invest Bond is wish the government to do the right thing like help country grow. invest Nvidia is choose Nvidia as the present of AI infrastructure.

You should choose the best present of the market. judge them as they are a person , a inteligence.

Is Technical sector still the best present of productive ? I think it is. especially at this moment of AI rise.

A respecful older used be very foresighted to proprose the slogan of "Always Represent the advanced productive forces.", I used to think it's just a boring right but meaningless phrase. But now I know how hard to represent productive, how hard to find the pattern of solving the problem, it's so easy to be not even wrong.

Unfortunately, this slogan is not emphasized as much now. However, this slogan is not just a clichéd phrase for results certification, but rather a guiding direction for the iterative process, that is very close to the essence. For a complex intelligent agent, the ultimate goal is to find the optimal path under the potential difference. This slogan is very fundamental, but it is difficult to achieve in practice due to many traps, such as "poorly defined problems, NOT EVEN WRONG, common demand misjudgments, and individual and organizational interests being misaligned" or "precise problem definition, but old models being stubbornly adhered to due to various constraints". Although the optimal path will naturally appears as long as the potential difference exists (and is constantly replaced by competition), But for individuals with limited lifetimes, it is important to focus on whether they represent the optimal path, and not waste time on trivial matters.

I'm a dumb , 今天傻逼了一回
2023-3-15 12:45

Yesterday, the US stock market rose 2.3%, because of the SVB crisis was solved, and CPI data was as expectated. And the Hongkong stock market is going down yesterday, I think Today the Hongkong market will raise as the US market, so I'm bought XIAOMI back at 11.24(which i sold at 11.56), the price went up in the morning, reaching a high of 11.36, but it soon went down again. I sold at 10.96, and lost about 10k HKD.

I feel angry, sad, and disappointed about myself. I realize that I made a mistake by speculating and gambling on XIAOMI's stock, despite knowing that it was not a good time to hold the company. I bought it simply because the market was rising, without considering the company's situation. Additionally, I lacked the knowledge to analyze the market and made my decision based on intuition alone.

I regret my immaturity and recognize that this is a big mistake that I need to remember in life. Therefore, I am recording it.

Next:

  1. I will focus on studying and learning the logic, behavior, and fundamental knowledge of investing. SHARE what I learn in my blog.
  2. Only invest INDEX and BOND , not gamble company price. base on probability. If I don't know the reason and probability, I will Hold CASH (For now the US FUND intrest is about 3%+ , it's a good choice for no risk hold).

昨日美股上涨2.3%,主要因为SVB危机解除,CPI数据在预期中。 而且港股昨天大跌跌,我觉得今天港股会随着美股上涨,所以我在11.24买入小米(前些天我在11.56卖出),今天价格确实上涨最高是11.36 ,但很快就下降。 最后我以10.96 的价格卖出,我损失了大约 10,000 港元,我是个笨蛋:

  1. 这次纯属投机和赌博,我知道小米现在不是持有的好时机,我不相信它会很快恢复,但我买它是因为市场上涨,忽略了公司的情况。
  2. 我只是凭感觉购买,没有一套可以验证的模型和方案。

我对自己感到愤怒、悲伤和失望. 之前我在市场上损失了很多钱,但我并不生气,因为以前我只购买指数并长期持有,逻辑是理性的,定投平均价格迟早会回来(实际也是),但这次我很后悔我的不成熟。 我在对基本逻辑一知半解的情况下,刚了解一些利率知识,就迫不及待地想试试,结果很快打脸。

这是人生中需要记住的一个大错误,所以我记录下来。

接下来:

  1. 注重学习,学习逻辑、行为、道理、基础知识。 分享我学到的东西,并在博客中分享
  2. 只投资INDEX和BOND,不赌公司价格。 基于概率决策,如果我不知道原因和概率,我会Hold CASH(目前美国FUND利息在3%+左右,无风险hold还算不错)。
Get Feedback
2023-3-13 9:22

Get Feedback is the key to train my self, without feedback, many things may stay Not Even Wrong, Learn in public is a technique to get feedback.

我和我骄傲的倔强
2023-2-22 12:00
我,如果对自己妥协,如果对自己说谎,即使别人原谅,我也不能原谅。

最美的愿望,一定最疯狂。 

我就是我自己的神,在我活的地方。

下一站,是不是天堂,就算失望,不能绝望。

就这一次,让我大声唱,就算失望,不能绝望。

我和我骄傲的倔强,握紧双手绝对不放。

——Just write some phrase, on the day I finally decided focus on my own practice and dream, not disturbed by the pressure and money.

Stick on a thing is not easy, especially stick on the life, stick on what I believe. But that's give me courage, give me strength, give me confidence and give me happy. I love it, eventhough I'm poor, I'm weak, But, It's me, it's real me.

From result oriented to process oriented
2023-2-19 12:00

A big change since me known that I was a neural network likes AI, is trun from result oriented to process oriented. From set a goal and perform it to set a enviorment and set the routine. just try and try, I don't know if it's possiable, I just know it will be possible.

I used to set a goal of lose to 75kg, and list the thing I need todo , like exercise at morning, sleep at 11pm. eventhough I had archieve this goal now, but not by follow my plan, things change a lot, I usually didn't finish my plan and I'm frustrating, sometimes I'm not exercise long time. things change from i just set the time , i need a exercise per 2 days, whatever the exercise is it. running , bicycle , or just squat.

And for the develop app, I have many idea to do, and have so much things to archieve, it's hard to schedule how i can finish it. so i explore and finish a feature and a feature, but it's just so long to the milestone . so I change to just stick time on it. forget the version 1, version 2, I have time, I can make someting in this time. things gonna easy.

just try whisper
2023-1-4 22:30

yesterday I tried webrtc-vad + baidu asr to recognize text in audio files, and today i found a openai project called whisper and it's stunned me , everything work perfect especially it's can run in local, so i didn't need to afraid the expense of online service fee.

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